I cannot tolerate the battle command structure that is fundamental to any military; I am incompatible with military service, because I cannot simply trust a "superior's" judgement as to whether or not I ought to engage any other individual with potentially lethal acts of aggression.  It is not any officer's conscience I must live with unto the rest of eternity, but my very own.  Our military does insist that soldiers always resist immoral orders, however, I am utterly convinced that all orders to kill, even in self-defense, are possibly immoral, and must be adequately reviewed before approval, regardless of the delay this may cause.  I am unwavering in my conviction that many enemy combatants of any war certainly cannot be righteously killed for their involvement, besides many of them being able to reach satisfactory pacification with employment of more patience, endurance, understanding, negotiation, and compromise.  I think any order to kill, which does not allow every solider every opportunity to second-guess that order, investigate the matter, and pursue alternative methods, to the point of the soliders' personal satisfaction, is most certainly immoral, and thus unacceptable.

War, by nature, draw elements of officially opposing nations/ forces into combat.  My soul cannot tolerate this, as it gives virtually no opportunity for warriors to confirm the worthwhileness of the battle.  If I were part of an element that fell under attack by an enemy element, I would be in a situation where proper moral investigation of the need for killing is practically impossible.  If I were to draw back from the combat, I would be persecuted with abandonment of my element.  If I attempted to halt the heated firefight, I would probably die before I was understood (probably leaving no one else to act out of Grace), but would certainly be opposing the enactments of my element, and confusing my comrades, perhaps fatally.  This demonstrate, for me, the intolerability of participating in wars.

I consider that, though I am a medic, I am required to wear ACUs, a uniform which necessarily symbolizes blind, fatal aggression (as it is a symbol of militancy).  The very wearing of such a uniform inspires a fatally defensive instinct in all those who do not share my national citizenship.  And militaries, of course, respond to a fatally defensive stance with a fatally aggressive stance, hence unnecessary killing.  And thus, my concern for each person's receiving of Grace, in word and deed, and so my concern for each person's eternal welfare, is intolerably compromised, on a massive scale, besides my conscience being defiled, as long as I serve any military or war, in any form.