This is foolishness.  I am too old, in the Lord, for this childish behavior.  I know better; I have lived better!  God pulled me out of the darkest depths of hopeless atheism into a life abundant.  He has invested Himself as the Holy Spirit within me.  He died and rose again from the dead for me.  Yes...  I can feel the tinges of transformation commence all over again just by recalling what God has done for me... how he has demonstrated His love.  Being a faithful lover of God is not about me being in and of myself a good person, but rather living in direct reaction to the goodness God has shown.  I must always let him introduce my actions.  I must keep his passion buried within the deepest chambers of my heart and rolling off the tip of my tongue.

I didn't expect such a talking-to-myself post, but this is definitely what I needed.  God bless the reader.

His Peace,

Jake