One Immortal To Another

I Cannot Measure Your Worth

17 June 1985
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I'm Jake, short for Jacob. It means "grasps the heel." My middle name is the same as my father's, "Ashton." It means "ash tree grove." My last name means "peaceful ruler." Am I an aggressively peaceful king who dwells in the forest? I'll let you decide.

I define myself as...

1) a Trinitarian Theologian (the Spirit of God revealed Herself to me in, or around, the month of June, 2000.)

2) a Christian Ethicist (I quickly accepted Christ as God in the flesh. I'm slowly conceding my lifestyle to His example & command... one of the latest milestones was becoming a pacifist, and even being recognized as such by my employer- the U.S. military.)

3) a Teacher of the Church (God picked my spiritual gifts, not me. Critiques of my use of them are to be directed to me. Critiques of my being destined with them to begin with are to be directed to Him.)


I'm twenty-five years old. I try live a healthy lifestyle that balances hardship and discipline with serenity and relaxation, because I want to productively live to a ripe old age, but also because I enjoy the balancing act in and of itself. All that being said, I also think today is a good day to die. Like many, I have had the luxury of experiencing a moment in time where death seemed imminent. I passed that moment well, giving me a tremendous confidence boost concerning how I had lived my life leading up to the event. But further, now each day is that much more clearly a gift to me. Life should be cherished and preserved, but it should be lived without fear of death.

Like most people, I have a handful of especially close friends who I want to live around for all of my life. I am more concerned with staying relationally and geographically close with these friends than with pairing off with a wife. I'm not sure that I can think of anything more sacred than mutual friendship.

I am abysmally single, despite my also being hopelessly romantic. I like to think that I'm still single, partially because I'm so romantic (and partially because an untold host of gorgeous and sometimes virtuous women exercised supreme judgment by telling me "No".)

My parents are still married, and I have an older brother and sister. We have a lot in common and a lot at ends, but we get along fairly well.

I am a Christian who studies and is awe-struck by the diversity of belief within this one, ancient, nearly worldwide faith. And yet I am astounded that so many of us allow these lesser differences to hinder the unity that comes to us so directly from our great, common Source. At times it makes me (and the whole world) wonder if Jesus truly is so precious to save and life-changing to follow, after all. But I insist that Christ will bring us into a unity as intimate as that he shares with the Father. So I consider the ecumenical work of uniting sincere Christians one of my highest callings. An essential element of that calling is, of course, empathetic and uncompromising study of differing Christian beliefs and practices.

I am a on a medical career path... so far nursing seems to be my future, but I'm open to various support specialties.

I hope to learn much about (and from) other religions. I've very gradually found serious value in religious tolerance. It started with a deep belief in empathy and good manners, but, in time, was met with a strong dose of sober relativism.

I'm extremely vain, but excellent at hiding it (I'm letting you in on inside information, here).

I want to do something for Native America. The land cries out injustice.

I love the arts. Original work is under the tag "Poetry & Lyrics."

I try to watch a lot of documentaries.

Some things I am inspired by are the subcreation of Tolkien, the hope of one day marrying a lady of beauty/ character/ religion/ similar friendships, the faith that a few of my dearest friends and I will always strive to live within walking distance of each other, and the mutual love demonstrated between the Persons of the Trinity.

Some of the things that enrage me are my ass-like stubbornness, the fact that Christ is widely claimed but seldom embraced, the incurable corruption of worldly powers, and child soldiering and trafficking.

Life is simultaneously more beautiful and more horrid than I expected. Sometimes I respond by being fatally legalistic and deeply hypocritical. Other times I'm perilously naive and irresponsibly tolerant. I'm supposed to love the sinner and hate the sin, but I find it's so much easier to either love them both or hate them both. God save me... and the world from me!

At the end of the day, people are all that really matter to me. Meeting new people online never fails to fascinate me. The internet is a gift from God!


Holy Trinity by Azrael-Nekhbet
"Holy Trinity" by Azrael-Nekhbet

- The Father sends the Son through the Spirit;
- the Son comes from the Father in the power of the Spirit;
- the Spirit brings people into the fellowship of the Son with the Father...

- The Father gives up his own Son to death in its most absolute sense, for us;
- the Son gives himself up, for us;
- the common sacrifice of the Father and the Son comes about through the Holy Spirit, who joins and unites the Son in his forsakenness with the Father...

- The Father raises the Son through the Spirit;
- the Father reveals the Son through the Spirit;
- the Son is enthroned as Lord of God's kingdom through the Spirit...

- The Father raises the dead Son through the life-giving Spirit;
- the Father enthrones the Son, as the Lord of his kingdom;
- the risen Son sends the creative Spirit from the Father, to renew heaven and earth...

- In baptism we encounter the divine Trinity as the eschatological history of God which is open in a forward-looking direction;
- the unity of the Father, the Son and the Spirit is hence an open unity, not a closed one;
- it is open for unification with believers, with mankind, and with the whole creation...

- The Father subjects everything to the Son;
- the Son transfers the consummated kingdom to the Father;
- the Son subjects himself to the Father...

In the sending, delivering up and resurrection of Christ we find this sequence:
Father - Spirit - Son.

In the lordship of Christ and the sending of the Spirit the sequence is:
Father - Son - Spirit.

But when we are considering the eschatological consummation and glorification, the sequence has to be:
Spirit - Son - Father.

-Jürgen Motlmann, "The Trinity and the Kingdom," p. 75-94


Creation Hands


"He lays himself open to the suffering which love for another brings him; and yet, by virtue of his love, he remains master of the pain that love causes him to suffer." -Jürgen Motlmann

"Courage is almost a contradiction in terms. It means a strong desire to live taking the form of readiness to die." - G. K. Chesterton

"And the Word became flesh, and dwelt among us..." -John 1:14



"Did God really say... ?" - The Serpent

"This is the very worst wickedness, that we refuse to acknowledge the passionate evil that is in us. This makes us secret and rotten." -D. H. Lawrence

"'Sin is crouching at the door; and its desire is for you, but you must master it.'" -Genesis 4:7



"Hurt people hurt people."

Then in despair I bowed my head
"There is no peace on the earth," I said
For hate is strong and mocks the song of
"Peace on earth goodwill toward men"
-I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day

"'Whoever causes one of these little ones who believe to stumble, it would be better for him if, with a heavy millstone hung around his neck, he had been cast into the sea.'" -Mark 9:42



Now my life ebbs away

Yet with the woes of sin and strife
The world has suffered long
Beneath the angel-strain have rolled
Two thousand years of wrong
And man, at war with man, hears not
The love-song which they bring
O hush the noise, you men of strife
And hear the angels sing
- It Came Upon the Midnight Clear

"The Lord saw that the wickedness of man was great on the earth, and that every intent of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually. The Lord was sorry that He had made man on the earth, and He was grieved in His heart." Genesis 6:4-5

&quot;loner&quot; by Glingal


"Meaningless! Meaningless!" -The Teacher

As critics scorn the thoughts and works of mortal man
My eyes are drawn to You in awe once again
-Jars of Clay

"'I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes.'" -Job 42:6

la confession du centurion


"The Old Testament in one word: Christ. The New Testament in one word: Jesus."

Let us speak of the things that for so many years have recessed in hollow caves
Let us speak of the things long hidden in our hearts
The words swelled up in the eddies of our souls
Take what it is that has hindered the eyes from seeing
Change what it is that has stopped the heart from beating
Heal what it is that has kept the lungs from breathing

"Surely he was the Son of God!" -Matthew 27:54

Lady Fred Fred


"I really only love God as much as I love the person I love least." -Dorothy Day

"O God, make the bad people good, and the good people nice." -an English girl

"'But I say to you who hear, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.'" -Luke 6:27-28

Wanderer II


Not all who wander are lost
-All That Is Gold Does Not Glitter

"Assured that the Lord can use our failures as well as our successes, we can be free to learn, free to hear criticism, and free to grow, for we know that the reign of God neither rises nor falls with our labors." -James Moorhead

"'Forgive us our sins, as we have forgiven those who sin agianst us.'" -Matthew 6:12



"What is the matter that you don't speak to me? Why don't you look at me and smile at me? I am a man. I have the same feet, legs, and hands, and the sun looks down on me a complete man. I want you to look and smile at me." -Geronimo

I can see a people dispossessed
Broken and brave in the face of so much fear
Driven from their homes by the greed of a nation
Whose treaties were as good as litter along the trail of their tears
I can see the Covenant colors
The sun and the rain woven against the blue of the sky
And I know if we live we will live by His promise
I know He who made it and I'm sure that He would not lie
-The Howling

"'Love your neighbor as yourself'" -Leviticus 19:18



"There are no strangers!" -Thomas Merton

"To love a person means to see him as God intended him to be." -Dostoevsky

"'Surely, no one can refuse the water for these to be baptized who have received the Holy Spirit just as we did, can he?'" -Acts 10:47



O momentary grace of mortal men,
Which we more hunt for than the grace of God.
-Richard III (Shakespeare)

"No one wants to know about your faith or unbelief, your orders are to perform the act of obedience on the spot. Then you will find yourself in the situation where faith becomes possible and where faith exists in the true sense of the word." -Dietrich Bonhoeffer

"'No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other.'" -Matthew 6:24

Gollum and the Precious


"I have to believe he can come back, Sam." -Frodo

The past is so tangible
I know it by heart
Familiar things are never easy to discard
I was dying for some freedom
But now I hesitate to go
I am caught between the promise
And the things I know
-Sara Groves

"When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God's law; but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. What a wretched man I am! Who will resuce me from this body of death?" -Romans 7:21-24

Christ Crucified


"The willing sacrifice of the innocent is the most powerful answer to insolent tyranny that has yet been conceived by God or man." -Mahatma Gandhi

He fights for breath, He fights for me
-From the Squalor of a Borrowed Stable

"Have this attitude in yourselves which was also in Christ Jesus, who, although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men. Being found in appearance as a man, He humbled Himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross." -Philippians 2:5-8



"Duty? No... I would have you smile again... You shall live to see these days renewed. No more despair." - Theoden

"Perhaps the greatest weakness within Christian theology is its reluctance to recognize that most models are complimentary, rather than mutually exclusive." -Alister McGrath

"'I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may be with you forever; that is the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it does not see Him or know Him, but you know Him because he abides with you and will be with you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.'" - John 14:17

&quot;moon light&quot; by tifachan (www.deviantart.com)


"Wonder, rather than doubt, is the root of all knowledge." -Abraham Joshua Heschel

We really cannot stay... the colours... the colours of the door...

"'Come'" - the Spirit, the bride, the one who hears (Revelation 22:17)

&quot;starry sky&quot; by chickii (www.deviantart.com)
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